POETIC DREAMER

2009-08-06T15:56:00.001-07:00

REPLACEABLE

Replaceable
that's what I am
like a spelling mistake
I'm easily erased
like an out of season shoe
I'm easily replaced
like an old pen whose ink has run out
I'm thrown out
like a blown buld
in replaced by a brighter one
BUT IM HUMAN
I shouldn't be replaceable
like a shriveled flower
I'm replaced
i hide in the shadows
I'm a brick in your wall
I'm another tile on your floor
everyone just walks all over
like an old pillow
like an old bag
like an empty bottle of juice
i am replaced
REPLACEABLE
THAT'S WHAT I AM TO YOU
BUT i am one of a kind
I am the only one of ME
There will be no other...but its ok if you see me as
REPLACEABLE

Blaque

2009-08-06T15:27:00.000-07:00

this is one of my all time favorite...

TOURNIQUET
i tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
i lay dying and i'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
i'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side or will you forget me
i'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will i be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide

I have always love EVANESCANCE
BUT THESE ARE TO BE MEMORIZED

Chop suey
SYSTEM OF A DOWN:

Wake up (wake up)
Grab a brush and put a little (makeup)
Hide the scars to fade away the (shakeup)
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
Here you go create another fable
You wanted to
Grab a brush and put a little makeup
You wanted to
Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
You wanted to
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
You wanted to
I don't think you trust
In, my, self righteous suicide
I, cry, when angels deserve to DIE!!
ROOAAA!!!
Wake up (wake up)
Grab a brush and put a little (makeup)
Hide the scars to fade away
Hide the scars to fade away the (shake up)
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
Here you go create another fable
You wanted to
Grab a brush and put a little makeup
You wanted to
Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
You wanted to
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
You wanted to
I don't think you trust
In, my, self righteous suicide
I, cry, when angels deserve to die
In, my, self righteous suicide
I, cry, when angels deserve to die
Father, father, father, father
Father into your hands, I commend my spirit
Father into your hands
why have you forsaken me
In your eyes forsaken me
In your thoughts forsaken me
In your heart forsaken, me oh
Trust in my self righteous suicide
I, cry, when angels deserve to die
In my self righteous suicide
I, cry, when angels deserve to die..

2009-08-05T02:33:00.000-07:00

have you ever felt the ultimate betrayal by those you held so dearly to you. well there are some thing that will always happen and sometimes one needs to accept the fact that no one cares about your NEEDS but you and sometimes it may be hard to accept but hey we are human and have had the gift of dealing with remarkable amounts of pain physically , mentally and emotionally.

Today was one of those days where you hear the inner voice inside of you saying "who are you kidding, you can't hid behind this mask for long. you smile but inside you hurt." well there are some things that one needs to deal with alone no matter how COMMITTED you maybe to some one who means everything and more but for some reason keeps you hidden.

Well lets just say life is not fair yet we have to live regardless of the pain that comes with it.

2008-07-30T02:28:00.000-07:00

HEYA BLOGGERS.

hope you all are good.i don't have much to say as i havn't been doing much...nothing hectic happend.

BOXED WRITER

I sit in my boxed sanctuary.
For I fear what I have become.
The mask I once wore with pride has been broken.
For they knew I can't...
For they knew I'd never...
They knew I could never walk with the same pride as I did.
My mask of fear,
My mask of fakeness they have taken it.
Have I played right into their palms?
For I have chosen to hide,hide in my boxed sanctuary.
For life is a story
writen about each of us.
like you I am a character
those I meet or have met were those that make my story.
Those I befriend are those who make my chapters
For I have embraced my NUBIAN KING
as I am to be crowend the NUBIAN QUEEN
for the chapters I am bound to embark wil be those of ROYALTY as i am tested.
The ultimate test of LOYALTY
as I see the kingz NUBIAN personalities.
For we are mearly characters
Who do you choose to be?
For I am the writer of my own destiny.
Which I proof read in my boxed sanctuary..

BLAQUE

2008-04-03T04:40:00.000-07:00

HOWDY BLOGGERS.

Hope u are doing ok,im doing ok jst a few thingz standing in my way.

am gona rant and rave about those who are insipidly stupid yet manage 2get high positionz only because they shook and used what theya mama gavem yet stil hav no experience in anything bt TONSIL HOCKEY n doing da nasty in a FORD BANTUM...yes a ford bantum,can u believe it.wander how small he is n her flexibility must be impecable which leaves a huge desgusted stare in my eyes.

there should be a rule put on loud bubblegum chewing as some realy have a hard time understanding the consept of chewing....yoh some people are born realy realy realy stupid prove dat some of the steriotypes out there realy are true.And as a woman who has an impecable eye for women,a hot woman with no class and cant even try and compromise when in a corprate environment or in a social environment in my eyes is no more dan a hillbrow whore who chargez R2,50 for a bj.seis wena stop selling ur self cheap get a life na get an aidz test maybe ul reach da end of your story bt havnt known it yet.hahahahahahahahaha.wooow i feel i needa stop ranting.

Da DIAMONDZ got a job,she slowly begining 2SHINE BRIGHTER THAN BEFORE...BEE here i come.

2007-12-06T14:14:00.000-08:00

Hey...watzup bloggaz.

Did i tel yal...da diamondz gone and cut all ties...al ties wif my forma black worrior,nw i got a new 1,dey r sexy,muscles from heaven,looks from da godz and well...letz jst say i cleaned out my fone book 4my AFRICAN NIA,dey knw who day r,day knw how to treat a lady makem feel like a QUEEN.datz how i feel,lyk a queen.

ladiez yal shudnt waste ur tym on peepz dat make u sad.be wif dose dat make u smile.

DA DIAMOND is greatful for every if any attempt from da worrior turnd wonderor,nx she hooked on somfin less hectic.

oh da beauties of being a woman/child. mo bout my AFRICAN NIA l8a.nyt al

2007-12-06T10:46:00.000-08:00

Hey peepz.

hope yal r ok.me im confused.my heart leads me one way,my soul anotha way,my spirit leading me in da opposit direction whilst my mind and malaika hav a fight on which direction i should go.
confusion is a painful thing if caused by someone else yet the one who can get you out is da inner being.wel malaika has chosen to join this useless tug of war.

hav you ever felt lost in confusion not knowing where its comming from...i have and dats a nicer form of confusion...da one im feeling can only be delt with internaly.

Heres to those that tryd to bring me down,yal almost succeeded,ALMOST being the operative word.yal can kiss it,if you see it.ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha. anywhoo back to sanity...

must go...l8a

2007-12-02T19:20:00.001-08:00

HEY BLOGGERS.
sorry i been away 4so long,was writing examz bt im dun.wel hav been in a somber mood since and hav writen 36 new poems those around JHB beta watch da Space,da diamond might shine sooner dan expected.

wel back to da reason why iv lost my sparkle...letz just say my AFRICAN BLACK WONDER became da WONDERER.bt da wonderer is da driving force behind da great poems i wrote,letz jst say i went back 2writing realy great tear jerking poemz.

BUT...what i dnt tel is I neva am kept dwn or broken...SUM1 WAS POLISHIN DA DIAMOND AND GOT SUM OF MY SPARCLE BK so ya im a half polished diamond wif minor flawz dat make me unique.
KWAKI...THANX 4being a gR8 friend,u knw when to cal picked my spirit when it was dwn.ur truely an angel.cnt w8 2c u.
To those who took me under their wing in da cape,I WIL NEVA 4GET YAL...WER FAMILY NW....WEL gota go. l8a.

2007-10-27T06:45:00.001-07:00

Da heart is an amaizing thing.mine is plane strange,i swear it has a mind of itz own.
It alwayz getz me in trouble or in tight situationz where il find myself between a ROCK and A HARD PLACE.

Jst like now.im in a situation where ur with sum1 yet ur not(distance wize)plus this person has limited our conversationz to 2lines and when i wana talk,da person is working,when dey wana tlk 2me im sleeping...I named da1 AFRICAN WONDER.Now i am falling but im scared i won't be cought...anyway i hav 2go nw...wil continue l8a

2007-10-27T06:28:00.000-07:00

Hey bloggers.ul b happy to know that da Diamond can blog from her fone.ha ha he hee he.
Anywho hope yal ok.im grand.jst a little stressd but hey nothing comes free.my price:STRESS.

2007-10-23T02:24:00.000-07:00

BLACK DIAMOND GOING TO DA POOL practice 4 sports illustrated wanna be model.HE HE HE HE HE HAAAAAAAAA HA.come on now laugh wif me.
THIS WAS B4 I LOST THE BEER BOOP.
MY FRIEND.THOSE FROM NLSP WOULD KNOW THIS CUTIE FROM AROUND PS:SHE IS STILL AN ANGEL.
BORDOM MAKES YOU DO WONDERS,ARNT iI HOTTTTTTTTTTTTT?jst kidding

2007-10-23T02:06:00.000-07:00

first fitting
second fitting and final touches to dress and jacket

the day of my matric dance

hey bloggers its the Diamond again.

IM REALLY SORRY for my silence.

these are the pics of my matric dance. so if yall like it give me a ring.if you know of anyone who would like to use my services in designing(hair and dress/suit/clothing) plus make up or all round style let them haller at your gall. 0743230892

will write l8a.

OH AND HI TO ALL THE UCT STUDENTS WHO ATTENDED THE BEACH BRAAI,yall realy made a gal feel welcome and gr8 exept for you yess you know who you are,a GUY can say HI,thats what gentlemen say not imbisals that scream "WATSUP MA NIGGA".

WILL FILL YOU IN once I'v RECOVERED FROM SPRINGBOK FEVA.

2007-08-14T03:35:00.000-07:00

Hey bloggers

just saw Divaz comment and girl you have no idea how shit I feel.I wish i would be able to join you guys but I am writing...

Some days i wake up hoping I would be in a place I know

To pick up the fone and make plans

Plans with people I know,people that understood me.

They promised

They promised never to forget me...

I didn't know.

I wasn't told...

If i had known...i wouldn't have left

I wouldn't have let them RIPP me away from the place I loved to hate yet hated to love.

I was stripped of all i Had...

For my identity has gone with all I had.

For my soul has gone back

Back to where I called home.

I am empty...

Lost

Lost in a place where the smiles mask frowns

Where I have to accept the fact that I DO NOT BELONG.

In a place where my true friend is my poetry

Where my tissue is the paper on which I cry.

I cry for I am alone...

I tried to tell you

I tried to scream but to you it was a whisper

I tried to stand but i have no back bone

My spirt like worthless grains of sand

Blown away by the winds of sorrow

For I have no one

For i have my words

I mask my emotions for I must

For i am shuned at my epressions of pain

for i can no longer breath.

I didn't know

I never knew...

I wish i knew...

but they never told me...

why didn't they say anything.

why have i become forsaken by them

the ones I cried to

the ones I spoke to

the ones I trusted.

now i know what they ment

what the others feel

the ones we chose to ignore

the ones we forgot.

but I didnt know.

i didn't ask...

i thought...

i thought i...

I thought I would be able to go back...

i was sure you remembered me...

but you have changed...CLAIMING

that I was the one for you refused

you refused to accept

you refused to see who I realy am.

if ionly I knew...

If only I had asked...

but i didn't have it...

If i knew you would have changed...

i would have come...

i came but you didn't recognize me for i had changed...

if only I knew...

I wish i had known

Now Im back to where it all began

I am lost

I am alone for you

you promised...

IF ONLY I KNEW...!

BLAQ DIAMOND

2007-08-13T04:58:00.000-07:00

2007-08-13T04:29:00.000-07:00

bloggers bloggers blogger.
I gotta say.
Im disturbing to read that the Diva wants to know if we can find sum herb to enlarge our "WOMANHOOD"...HMM does sound tempting kepha mama we were blessed as when we were made,we never needed any enhancement.ITS ALL IN THE HIPS.and if you dnt chop and change sizes like jewellary...it should happen gradually like a bra size.

anyway so the matric dance was last thursday...I gotta say it was TIGHT although da damb black brothers let me down well I ended up going with the sweetest white dude which if i may say i met that night...he was organized by my friend.

Anyway...went to a hectic party and lets just say im not as young as I thought.WELL i been making a name for myself amongst the bright brother...was at a trance party where the music was hectic and have been invited to more by strange yet cute bright brothers who appreciate the larger and curved individuals.

well now i had fun...

o did i tell you?There is this uy I liked and he says to me typical kasi yet budgwa "email me a cv and Ill get bk to you" forgetting that as AFROSLIQ DIVA would say "JABU'S GOT A BADONKA DONK SO SHE'S LEAVING YOU,Vee's got a badonka donk and I TOLD YOU THAT ITS TRUE" SO yah to cut a story short I retracted it as I REFUSE TO BE CONSIDERED AS AN EMPLOYEE AND HE MY EMPLOYER..HHE...YAH MADVODZA AYAHLUPHA FUTSI BAYANGIXAKA.

laba ba lapha eKapa...HHEEEE HHM bayahlupa with.I had to deal with the nelspruit/jozi crew MARA this side its CAPE TOWN/LANGA/MITCHELES PLAIN and gugulethu.
YESS eGUGZ...this is like a EKUSILE butr bigger and the men come from all over to eat KWAMZOLI which is 4 to 8 KM away from Maphindi's place...Itechnology...you can call and pre order your meat and pay nge khadi.

We got new neighbours ekhomplexini mara yee baya caka.

Diva I cannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnot wait to cum vizit as you will c kupashinjwa ngaphandle.

To DJ VIBE thanks for everything...Kliffoday although we havn't spoken in ages im still down with NATIVE SQUAD.Kwaki you will alway remain the CHARMER SERIEL KILLER you havnt changed.Kasikulture I DIG YOUR SITE and not forgetting my lovely friends SLINKY,WENDY,BOZZY,KAUKI,BOLBO and all those I havent forgotten but cant type 'em all YOU GUYS ROCK.

MAKHIDAH and BOBO you guys are the bomb and love you lots.MAKHIDAH you sound beautifull my neice.

Ill be going to FIRE ON THE MOUNTAIN HIPHOP AND POETRY FESTIVAL in the mountains in september 27-29 I cannot wait.

ngiyabuya mabloggers

2007-08-13T02:07:00.000-07:00

Hi bloggers.

I hope you are all ok.
Yesturday was a sad day for all my friends who found out that one of the most amaizing people had passed on.

We all knew him,we loved him some tried to hate him but they soon realized it wasn't worth it.He was the one who smiled through any situation.I would get angry but everytime he would laugh and say "Mara Vee watsiba kguri umutle jwang when you'r angry""you are crazy but in your ouwn way"

SUPA DUPA EXTRA FLY
the sound of your voice made us smile
you called us crazy yet apprecited it.
you lived up to your name
you truely were a gift.
you are and will always be
THE RAIN WITHOUT THUNDER(MEDUPI)
Heaven must be the place to be with you up there.
BRIGHT EYES BURNING LIKE FIRE
HOW CAN A LIGHT THAT BURNED SO BRIGHTLY SUDDENLY BURN SO PALE?
My our mother imbrace you in her womb
for the SHE has called you home.
"WHEN YOU WERE BORN...YOU CRIED AS THE WORLD REJOICED
TODAY YOU ARE GONE...ITS OUR TURN TO CRY AS YOU REJOICE IN HEAVEN for you are with the one you trust.

WISH YOU HAD ANOTHER DAY TO LAST...
WISH YOU HAD ANOTHER CHANCE.
may you smile on the ones you left behind for they will always remember you.Till we meet again.

DIVA you and all of his friends we have something special..WE HAVE GAINED THE COOLEST ANGEL EVER FOR HE LIVES IN OUR HEARTS&MINDS.

later bloggers.

2007-08-06T02:26:00.000-07:00

SWPS PREFECTS 2007

The Diamond on a hike at the NAVY in Gordans Bay.I gotta say it was tough but worth it.Hollar.

2007-08-06T02:15:00.000-07:00

Howdy

Ever felt like you were betraid by someone you considered a friend?Well I was and it isn't fun!!!Well got 2 more days left till my matric dance I CAN'T WAIT.Got my date sorted out(FINALLY)he sounds HOTT though I havn't met him since the last time where I was DUBOUCHED and yess agin I will be united with my FIRST LUV AMSTEL again.Dude you should see my excitement its stranger than strange.Will be parting the WHOLE LONG WEEKEND but have no time to recover.I will be Flexing my muscels. I got a new hair do which if I may say so myself is TIGHT...THE NORMAL WAY.

wELL gotta go. Luv yall loads.

2007-07-27T02:36:00.000-07:00

here are a few pics of me

2007-07-26T03:49:00.000-07:00

heya bloggers.

Hope the DIVA is doing grand.

Well the story goes...I got my Matric dance in 2weeks tym and those who know and have seen me I dnt just dress for the sake of dressing sooooo lets just say IMA BE HOT plus I gotta represent since Im the ONLY BLACK ONE so i gotta be Ghetto fab the suburban way.

Ever had the feeling of being lost and lonly while you in a crowd,you look into a mirror to see a stranger looking back at you.Well I felt like that and let me share it with you.

hers a peice from "STORIES OF A BLAQUE DIAMOND" written by Blaque Diamond

"Im not a great poet but these are my thoughts, my tears, my emotions and my life. If It weren't for Poetry I would be in a loada SHIT....It is my addiction, it is my HIGH it is my everything that edge thats there at my fingertips. In it I can confide, In it I have a true companion In it I have love in it I have voice to speak when i can nolonger speak the will to fight when i can no longer in IT I can be true, In it I have the perfect world in IT i have life in it I have EVERYTHING in it i have never ending wealth in it I have IMORTALITY, SUPERIORITY AND UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.I thank the one that sawed it in my cloth from which I was made.I THANK IT...Poetry i write this to YOU."

So guys try it you might like it and who knows you might be the next worlds best poet bread in S.A.

2007-07-20T07:33:00.000-07:00

HELLLOOOO THERE...WATSHANGING BLOGGERS.

DA DIAMOND IS BACK...hotter then eva but some how I managed to be a nerd.O YAH I WAS BUSY WITH A STORY...HMM LET ME CONTINUE.

Well so he calls me right,a great 5 months later and hey lets just say it was a shock in a shock hidden in confusion and a bit of uncertainty as well of couse again I WAS DRUNK. then there was dis SHADY SHADY OKIE that i met on one of my drinking sprees in the cape where a bunch of my friends ya yoou read right...i got BLACK friend in strand and they are realy cool.

anyway so this guy I met drives a nca car and well lets just say after my experience with guys that drive nice cars i thought to my self..VEE DIS GUY IS CRAZY and dnt even think about it. Well I got this fetish for dangerouse looking okies which are actualy shady..HOT but realy scaly the type you would NEVER EVER tell your real name,where you live,what school you really go to AND WELL THEY BELIEVE YOU coz you are not the only one they are trying to get to...Anyway so this guy calls me the next day and yoh yoh yoh yoh yoh HIS ENGLISH,UYAYI FOSTA and I thought the soccer players were bad..HMM MZEKE HAS NOTHING ON THIS ONE! I tried not to laugh but through the whole tym i was in stitched i even began developing a SIX PACK thanks to him... GOTTA GO TO BE CONTINUED.

2007-05-15T04:07:00.000-07:00

howdy bloggas

whatz up? well I been OK just that I hate it when some people find it their responsibility to try make me happy by trying to hook me up with STRANGE NIGGAZ.

Well ova da long weekend I was at my friend place in CAPE TOWN and well lets just say the sky was the limit where we let our other friend lead the way enjoying our last weekend of FREEDOM.
3days into it some one takes the libity to invite a certain celebrity but more like a XELEBRITI.kasi styl but he was well not as he looked on TV(its amaizing what make-up can do),anyway so he comes ova and lets just say the ATTITUDE just doesnt do any justic the looks,they weren't any.WELL turns out this guy works in the ALCOHOL INDUSTRY,well you could tell by just looking at him that he spends most of the time in the CELLARS instead of the OFFICE.well I was offended more by his behaviour which well was ratha SHOCING he was actually SULKing

TO BE CONTINUED

2006-11-09T23:09:00.000-08:00

LIFE WITH OUT A DREAM

Hi guys, sorry I been away for sooooo long.
Am preparing for the EXAMS and YHO it aint all easy.Anyway back to my topic LIFE IS BUT A DREAM...ha,Im sure that your reaction but ya its true.

Put yourself in my shoes, though they aint big but just try.
You go to sleep, you wake up and say "I HAD A MFER OF A DREAM". Well be happy you dream oh sugerplums and fairies(trying not to swear) be happy you even sleep.

Ok you probably lost right? Ill make it clearer I DONT SLEEP... NOT because i dont want to, COZ I CANT. Im an INSOMNIAC... my family thought I was possesed coz I just cant sleep. If I do its a PILL induced sleep ha ha ha aint that nice i get high on my prescribed medicine well that was what i thought. I cant even go to SLUMBER PARTIES, parties I start on friday and I will go on and on and on and on(with the occassional piss break and the must have SHOWER HOUR)... you get the point right.Sounds like fun hey... I HAVE NO DREAMS,I dont have an outer body experience which the COMMON PEOPLE call a DREAM.. OH DOOM on my soul, She has left me for greener pastures. LIFE SUX

anyway gotta go blogg you later... TO BE CONTINUED

2006-10-29T12:54:00.000-08:00

FRIENDS WHO DRINK ARE SHIPS THAT NEVER SINK

Well I'm back in action...for those with perverted minds like my dear friend KWAKI, I dnt mean it in that way. Any way over the years i have meet people thos who think,those who drink and those who jut sink into things that they can never ever tell you how they were introduced to to those things.

well i have the greatest pleasure of meeting a group of people who no matter how down i am, I know they will lift my spirts so high that i would feel like im in heaven. well im procrastinating but still they drink but some how they think rationally or better when they are sloshed.

these people never run out of thing to do no matter where you place them, not mentioning the fact that they never grow up... the kind of people who run around the mall pushing each othe in trollies. now the dumb part of this is they made a movie calling it NO LIMITS COS WE DID IT.. a lot of their time and all the brain cells they had left were fried trying to find a name.

they think the word is a square and bill clinton is a priest,they console themselves by saying "LIFE IS LIKE AN INVISIBLE APPLE,ONCE YOU THINK YOU SEE IT OF FOUND IT IT ENDS"HA HA HA GUYS JOKES ON YOU.THE WORLD IS ROUND AND NO IT DOESNT SPIN. WELL SORRY I GOTTA GO BUT THIS WILL BE CONTINUED...

2006-10-25T00:24:00.000-07:00

THE POETIC DREAMER

This is one of my works,as I have mentioned in my profile i am a poet. My works have improved but this is on of my first poems, titled THE POETIC DREAMER

Well here it goes:

POETIC DREAMER

The poetic dreamer
Is what I am?
My mind closes its eyes
To see the world in my mind
My world of poet dreamers
Walking with their heads in the clouds
Eyes wide open.
In this world your pain you cannot hide.
Walking side by side with fellow dreamers
I walk in my world.
The world of the poetic dreamer
Before I was dubbed the poetic dreamer
I was just a dreamer with normal dreams
I lived in a normal world, but I wasn’t normal
I am not a normal kid
I am a dreamer of note
I dream to escape from the pains of this world
I dream of my own world
A world where words, notions and genuine emotions are painted in the sky
Where genuine emotions and expressions are yours
I was always in a daze, and I still am
I always was and still am poetic
As a dreamer I write.
Transferring my emotions to paper
Poetic and a dreamer
It was my destiny to be the Poetic dreamer.
As a child of destiny
My destiny will be fulfilled.
I am proud to be dubbed the poetic dreamer.

BLAQUE

As I said its not good but its my thoughts on paper, well in your case on screen.

2006-10-25T00:05:00.000-07:00

EVA FELT ...

Ever felt the need to talk,only to find there's no one to talk to?
you begin to wonder how long must you wait to find come one to talk to,
you stare at your fone hoping it rings.

Eva felt the need to be huged
not by anyone in particular,
just that need to be embraced by someone or something.

Eva felt the shivers of fear down your back
not knowing whats causing them.
you remember the movie you watched last night,
you hear the ghostly child like whispers in your ear.
But you are alone.

Eva wondered,
ever thought of what your words are doing to someone.
ever felt how the GEEK in your school feels every time you dish out unnessesary comments,
The comments which your MOTHER or FATHER dished out to you to lift their spirits.

Eva felt the pain
the pain of being the social ot cast
the pain of being the kone who is always dissed
the pain of crying yourself to sleep
well take time and reed this poem which I wrote after on of my friends tried to commit suicide.
All because she felt unwanted
all because she felt defieted
defieted by words that hit her from every direction
defieted by the stares she gets from the cool crew, all because she was DIFFERENT.
ALL HER PAIN IS WHAT LEAD TO HER SUICIDE

This peice is called SLIT MY WRISTS

SLIT MY WRISTS
Intro
Just as I try to get up
I trip and fall, deeper and deeper
My soul is drifting further and further away
My dreams have faded
Self-destruction is where I’m headed

I’m sitting here thinking, my heart is bleeding
My soul is sinking, my spirit’s screaming
I’m in the ninth grade, learning from the bad choices I’ve made
Hearing voices in my head as my dreams begin to fade
As an African beauty my life is a beast
Every night I cry wishing I could die

The life that I live isn’t worth living
The love that I give isn’t the love I receive
People won’t believe me, instead they deceive me
Being a social outcast how long is it going to last
I go to sleep wishing I don’t wake up, one day I’ll just take the risk just sit down and slit my wrist
In the end I’ll wind up dead.
My pain inside will lead to my suicide.

Lying here thinking (empty thoughts)
My soul is sinking (my heart is pounding)
My dreams were real (but not anymore)
People just amaze me (I think I’m going crazy)
Hanging with the wrong crowed (the pain inside I’ve tried to hide)
Trying to be cool, I end up being everybody’s fool
Always called the other chick (you wonder why I’m always sick)
All along I’ve lived in a dream, just woken up and realized it’s not what it seems
Everyday I think but my soul continues to sink

The life that I live isn’t worth living
The love that I give isn’t the love I receive
People won’t believe me, instead they deceive me
Being a social outcast how long is it going to last
I go to sleep wishing I don’t wake up, one day I’ll just take the risk just sit down and slit my wrist
In the end I’ll wind up dead.
My pain inside will lead to my suicide.

In my imagination I’m a part of a generation overworked by expectations
Hope you realize the pain inside my eyes (this I cannot hide)
Can’t take the pain (feels like I’m going insane)
Your words are as sharp as a needle, piercing my heart, injecting poison in my soul
Slowly dying, you can’t stop lying but because of you I can’t stop crying
What’s it worth, cant take the hurt of being everybody’s fool
Just because I want to be cool
My feelings stuck in a bottle, I thought I’d reached the bottom.
An emotional load very soon I’ll explode
The bottle will break no more pain my heart can take
The pain that I bottle inside is what will lead to my suicide

As I cry I wonder why I’d rather die, am I prepared to never see the sky?
My eyes covered by the dark grey mist, don’t think I can take the risk and slit my wrist.

My heart’s still bleeding
My soul’s still sinking
My spirit’s still screaming
Because of the pain I’ve stopped dreaming
These voices in my head saying I’m better off dead
As I think, cry and dream my soul sinks deeper and deeper
My heart pumps harder and harder causing it to bleeding heavier and heavier
My spirit screams louder and louder
It’s the pain inside that will lead to my suicide, too much pain I’ve had to hide
In the end I’ll wind up dead, the bottled pain inside is what lead to my suicide

BLAQUE

The rate of teen suicide has grown, rate of teens killing each others has escalated.
Now take the time to reflect on your life and ask if you EVA FELT...