Hey bloggers

just saw Divaz comment and girl you have no idea how shit I feel.I wish i would be able to join you guys but I am writing...

Some days i wake up hoping I would be in a place I know

To pick up the fone and make plans

Plans with people I know,people that understood me.

They promised

They promised never to forget me...

I didn't know.

I wasn't told...

If i had known...i wouldn't have left

I wouldn't have let them RIPP me away from the place I loved to hate yet hated to love.

I was stripped of all i Had...

For my identity has gone with all I had.

For my soul has gone back

Back to where I called home.

I am empty...

Lost

Lost in a place where the smiles mask frowns

Where I have to accept the fact that I DO NOT BELONG.

In a place where my true friend is my poetry

Where my tissue is the paper on which I cry.

I cry for I am alone...

I tried to tell you

I tried to scream but to you it was a whisper

I tried to stand but i have no back bone

My spirt like worthless grains of sand

Blown away by the winds of sorrow

For I have no one

For i have my words

I mask my emotions for I must

For i am shuned at my epressions of pain

for i can no longer breath.

I didn't know

I never knew...

I wish i knew...

but they never told me...

why didn't they say anything.

why have i become forsaken by them

the ones I cried to

the ones I spoke to

the ones I trusted.

now i know what they ment

what the others feel

the ones we chose to ignore

the ones we forgot.

but I didnt know.

i didn't ask...

i thought...

i thought i...

I thought I would be able to go back...

i was sure you remembered me...

but you have changed...CLAIMING

that I was the one for you refused

you refused to accept

you refused to see who I realy am.

if ionly I knew...

If only I had asked...

but i didn't have it...

If i knew you would have changed...

i would have come...

i came but you didn't recognize me for i had changed...

if only I knew...

I wish i had known

Now Im back to where it all began

I am lost

I am alone for you

you promised...

IF ONLY I KNEW...!

BLAQ DIAMOND

bloggers bloggers blogger.
I gotta say.
Im disturbing to read that the Diva wants to know if we can find sum herb to enlarge our "WOMANHOOD"...HMM does sound tempting kepha mama we were blessed as when we were made,we never needed any enhancement.ITS ALL IN THE HIPS.and if you dnt chop and change sizes like jewellary...it should happen gradually like a bra size.

anyway so the matric dance was last thursday...I gotta say it was TIGHT although da damb black brothers let me down well I ended up going with the sweetest white dude which if i may say i met that night...he was organized by my friend.

Anyway...went to a hectic party and lets just say im not as young as I thought.WELL i been making a name for myself amongst the bright brother...was at a trance party where the music was hectic and have been invited to more by strange yet cute bright brothers who appreciate the larger and curved individuals.

well now i had fun...

o did i tell you?There is this uy I liked and he says to me typical kasi yet budgwa "email me a cv and Ill get bk to you" forgetting that as AFROSLIQ DIVA would say "JABU'S GOT A BADONKA DONK SO SHE'S LEAVING YOU,Vee's got a badonka donk and I TOLD YOU THAT ITS TRUE" SO yah to cut a story short I retracted it as I REFUSE TO BE CONSIDERED AS AN EMPLOYEE AND HE MY EMPLOYER..HHE...YAH MADVODZA AYAHLUPHA FUTSI BAYANGIXAKA.

laba ba lapha eKapa...HHEEEE HHM bayahlupa with.I had to deal with the nelspruit/jozi crew MARA this side its CAPE TOWN/LANGA/MITCHELES PLAIN and gugulethu.
YESS eGUGZ...this is like a EKUSILE butr bigger and the men come from all over to eat KWAMZOLI which is 4 to 8 KM away from Maphindi's place...Itechnology...you can call and pre order your meat and pay nge khadi.

We got new neighbours ekhomplexini mara yee baya caka.

Diva I cannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnot wait to cum vizit as you will c kupashinjwa ngaphandle.

To DJ VIBE thanks for everything...Kliffoday although we havn't spoken in ages im still down with NATIVE SQUAD.Kwaki you will alway remain the CHARMER SERIEL KILLER you havnt changed.Kasikulture I DIG YOUR SITE and not forgetting my lovely friends SLINKY,WENDY,BOZZY,KAUKI,BOLBO and all those I havent forgotten but cant type 'em all YOU GUYS ROCK.

MAKHIDAH and BOBO you guys are the bomb and love you lots.MAKHIDAH you sound beautifull my neice.

Ill be going to FIRE ON THE MOUNTAIN HIPHOP AND POETRY FESTIVAL in the mountains in september 27-29 I cannot wait.

ngiyabuya mabloggers

Hi bloggers.

I hope you are all ok.
Yesturday was a sad day for all my friends who found out that one of the most amaizing people had passed on.

We all knew him,we loved him some tried to hate him but they soon realized it wasn't worth it.He was the one who smiled through any situation.I would get angry but everytime he would laugh and say "Mara Vee watsiba kguri umutle jwang when you'r angry""you are crazy but in your ouwn way"

SUPA DUPA EXTRA FLY
the sound of your voice made us smile
you called us crazy yet apprecited it.
you lived up to your name
you truely were a gift.
you are and will always be
THE RAIN WITHOUT THUNDER(MEDUPI)
Heaven must be the place to be with you up there.
BRIGHT EYES BURNING LIKE FIRE
HOW CAN A LIGHT THAT BURNED SO BRIGHTLY SUDDENLY BURN SO PALE?
My our mother imbrace you in her womb
for the SHE has called you home.
"WHEN YOU WERE BORN...YOU CRIED AS THE WORLD REJOICED
TODAY YOU ARE GONE...ITS OUR TURN TO CRY AS YOU REJOICE IN HEAVEN for you are with the one you trust.

WISH YOU HAD ANOTHER DAY TO LAST...
WISH YOU HAD ANOTHER CHANCE.
may you smile on the ones you left behind for they will always remember you.Till we meet again.

DIVA you and all of his friends we have something special..WE HAVE GAINED THE COOLEST ANGEL EVER FOR HE LIVES IN OUR HEARTS&MINDS.

later bloggers.

SWPS PREFECTS 2007

The Diamond on a hike at the NAVY in Gordans Bay.I gotta say it was tough but worth it.Hollar.

Howdy

Ever felt like you were betraid by someone you considered a friend?Well I was and it isn't fun!!!Well got 2 more days left till my matric dance I CAN'T WAIT.Got my date sorted out(FINALLY)he sounds HOTT though I havn't met him since the last time where I was DUBOUCHED and yess agin I will be united with my FIRST LUV AMSTEL again.Dude you should see my excitement its stranger than strange.Will be parting the WHOLE LONG WEEKEND but have no time to recover.I will be Flexing my muscels. I got a new hair do which if I may say so myself is TIGHT...THE NORMAL WAY.

wELL gotta go. Luv yall loads.